1. |
Morning Prayer
00:33
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MORNING PRAYER
Last night I had a dream
I was drowning again
You grabbed my hand
And pulled me to safety
As I looked into your eyes
I saw my savior
The person that I knew
Had been there all along
Just waiting for the chance to kill me
We kissed
And my mouth started to bleed
Then all my teeth fell out
I hate it when that happens
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2. |
Beauty Fiend
03:41
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BEAUTY FIEND
It’s true, I’ve got demons inside me
And sometimes they need to speak
My dark places make me feel ugly
My lips are glossed but my heart is weak
I'm diseased, as seen on TV
Please forgive me, for not being pretty
Or sexy but god never blessed me
Here's what you'll find next time you undress me
Scars
Wounds
I'm bruised
Watch me bleed
I'm your beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty fiend
Once again, without perfect teeth I begin
The dream as I sleep soon I've sinned
My skin is still thick
My mouth as always is brutally honest
At my calmest, I'm tired of explaining
How it feels…to be exploited and rated
Number one, two or seventeen
Fuck what they print in those damn magazines
Scars
Wounds
I'm used
Watch me bleed
I'm no beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty queen
Watch me bleed
I'm your beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty fiend
Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't touch me, don't fucking touch me
Don't touch me... why?
Can't you see beyond my skin
Size, my shape, my ass, my tits
I am not your pretty face
I'm just a girl, the girl you love to hate
Watch me bleed
I'm no beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty queen
Watch me bleed
I'm the beauty
Watch me bleed
Beauty fiend
Why can't you see beyond my skin
Size, my shape, my ass, my tits
I am not your pretty face
I'm just a girl
The girl you love to hate
Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't, don't you fucking touch me… pig
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3. |
Stick It To Me
03:02
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STICK IT TO ME
It doesn't matter what I say
Doesn't matter what I do
I don't really give a fuck about you
Nowadays it's all fake
Put some make up on your face
Lookin’ like a fuckin' chick in lipstick
There is nothing here for me
Dressed up in your new disease
Hollywood is full of shit
Don't ask me to sell my soul
I would rather be myself
You...do what you're told
Stick it to me
I know you want to
Stick it in me
You know you're going to
Stick it to me
I know you want to
Stick it in me
You know you're going to
Take a picture if you need
While I bleed
What makes you think
That you know me
Dinner and an interview
But I'm not a fan you
At least I tell the truth
Damned if I do
Damned if I don't
Damned if I will
If I won't
Stab me in the back
And buy me one more drink
Suck my trust until I'm fucked
Then you can say
You fucked me
Stick it to me
I know you want to
Stick it in me
You know you're going to
Stick it to me
I know you want to
Stick it in me
You know you're going to
You're so sneaky
With your surprises
You're so sweet
Underneath disguises
I can't wait
For you to criticize this
Don't think I don't know
How big your knife is
Stick it in me
I know you want to
Stick it to me
You know you’re going to
Stick it in me
I know you want to
Stick it to me
You know you’re going to
You don't know me
Like I know myself
And I will never tell
You don't know me
Like I know myself
You can go straight to hell
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4. |
Heartsick
03:01
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HEARTSICK
Late night catechism
Speaks me to sleep
A lethal dose of narcissism
Conquers the beast
I can't remember
How I got my last scar
The bible tells us
Jesus was a rockstar
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
Early morning exorcisms
Keep me awake
Seven stars surround me
As I burn like a saint
I can't remember
Why my knees are so sore
The bible tells us
Mary was a whore
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
There once was a girl
And she suffered from sickness
Mouth was distorted
From razor sharp kisses
Tried to pretend
It was all in her mind
But I know her voice
When I hear mine
God are you listening
I hear you in my room
As hot as the moon
On the tenth day of June
There's no sleeping for me
I'm losing my faith
Love is not safe
In a world filled with hate
Heartsick
I'm sick
Still sick
My heart is sick
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5. |
Rockstar
03:37
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ROCKSTAR
("This girl is harder than all you motherfuckers out there alright. Just let me get that one thing perfectly clear" - Lynn Strait / Snot)
I feel the skies open wide
See your blue eyes
When worlds collide
You're by my side
It's hard to lie
Sometimes I've cried
Wished it was me...
Wished it was me who died
I can see you in the sunshine
I feel you where I stand
I can see you in the bright lights
I fell you hold my hand
Let your light surround me
In loving memory
Let your love surround me
Shine down on me
Shine on me
Something so deep inside me
Binds me with you
Told me a secret
Swore that I'd keep it
Someday my friend
We'll meet again
So until then...
I'll keep our secret safe
I can see you in the moonlight
I feel you when I sleep
I can see you on those dark nights
I feel your arms around me
Let your light surround me
In loving memory
Let your love surround me
Shine down on me
Shine on me
Rockstar
We will always be bound
We will always be down
We will always be bound
We will always be down
I feel you when I scream your words
I am just a girl that hurts
Feel me when I scream these words
I am just a girl that hurts
I feel you when I scream your words
I am just a girl that hurts
Feel me when I scream these words
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl that hurts
I am just a girl...that hurts
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6. |
Sanctuary
03:19
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SANCTUARY
Dishonest
You came with your first kiss
Blue eyes sold me
On your heavenly presence
Something was suffocating me
And I couldn't breathe
Had no idea that you
Would ever deceive
I tried to believe all the things
That you taught me
Christlike images of truth
They straight got me
Now watch me drown in sadness
My lungs gasp for air
As I let you stab this heart
And rip apart wounds that exist
Deeper and darker
Than any words I could spit
All is shit and it will never be well
Because the fires that burn
Are my never-ending hell
Is this what you call God
Your faith is lost
Is this what you call God
Get off your cross
Get off
Bridges connect for necessity
Lifelines scar my hands
Like the rest of me
Asked me to trust you
And yes I tried to
Constant apologies
Caused me to lie too
Tried to medicate my hate
With your magic
How could something so sweet
End up so tragic
Resurrect me
From this abyss
In death every body function
Fails to exist
False commitments
Tongues twisted with religion
A heart shaped rock
Of the same size incision
Obsolete with no
Relief or release
Just insomnia filled nights
Of never ending sleep
Is this what you call God
Your faith is lost
Is this what you call God
Get off your cross
Split a piece of wood
And I am there
Lift a stone
And you will find me
Are you still scared
Sanctuary
Sanctuary
Sanctuary
There's no sanctuary
Is this what you call God
Is this what you call God
Is this
Is this
Is this what you call love
Get off, get off
Watch me
Get off, get off
Watch me
Get off, get off
Now watch me fall
I swallowed all of your lies
And they felt good going down
Death be not proud
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7. |
Miss Ann Thrope
03:22
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MISS ANN THROPE
You're so pretty when you lie
Love songs always make me cry
I don't think you have a choice
There's no truth left in your voice
Remember when we used to laugh
Just try to forget all that
Wear my heart upon your lips
I hope it tastes just like shit
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
You're so pretty when you die
Love songs always make me cry
I don't think you realize
There's no blue left in your eyes
Remember when we used to sing
Just try to forget those things
Fill your hole inside with dirt
I hope that it fucking hurts
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
Just call me
Miss Ann Thrope
You have left a trail of deceit
Assault and flattery
Blasting through my wounds
Imprisoned me
In God and poetry
A ritual to mend
My angry heart
A breeding ground for your untruth
If God created man
In his own image
Then, fuck you
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
My hate for you
Defines my lust
Bridges to bridges
You're nothing to me
Welcome world
Miss Ann Thrope
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
My hate for you
Defines my lust
Bridges to bridges
You're nothing to me
Welcome world
Miss Ann Thrope
Fuck, c*nt
Miss Ann Thrope
C*nt, fuck
Miss Ann Thrope
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8. |
Hemorrhage
04:14
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HEMORRHAGE
I stick my finger down your throat
Explore my thoughts of murder
A journey through the human heart
Dark places filled with terror
Obsession lets me have my way
Devotion makes you stay
This mercy seat you imitate
Won't let you get away
In praise of him I pray
In praise of him I save
In praise of him I give myself away
Come kiss away my honesty
Exploit me with your pain
Learn to love this monster
You created in your name
Confession lets you face your fear
Redemption leaves a stain
The thought of me makes you so sick
There's nothing left to hate
In praise of him I pray
In praise of him I save
In praise of him I give myself away again
In praise of him I've prayed
In praise of him I'm saved
In praise of him I gave myself away
A different sort of suffering
I practice what I preach
Aroma therapeutic death
Can you smell me speak
If violence is religion
Then everyone's a star
It doesn't matter what you've done
Only who you are
Who you are
Who you are
Underneath the Hollywood cross
Underneath this holy wood cross
My lover let me tie you down
Hold your heart my hostage
I promise after I am through
Your skin will still taste salted
My mouth is not your enemy
My lips are not your friend
If we were still together
I would torture you again
In praise of him I pray
In praise of him I save
In praise of him I give myself away
In praise of him I've prayed
In praise of him I'm saved
In praise of him I hate myself today
You never know what you will find
Until you look inside
I never knew what I would find
And then I looked inside
Let me torture you again
Torture you my friend
Let me torture you again
Like you tortured me, my friend
Let me torture you again
Like you tortured me, my friend
Let me torture you again
Torture you my friend
It never ends....
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9. |
Letter To The Editor
03:22
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LETTER TO THE EDITOR
You believe everything you read
You believe everything you read
You believe everything you read
I can't believe what the fuck I read
Scream - words that I believe
Friends - became my enemies
Think - think before you speak
Don't - think you know me
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
Keep talking
Keep talking
Keep talking
Keep talking
Fight - say what's on my mind
Lies - words you hide behind
Be - careful what you say
Stay - stay the fuck away
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
Keep talking
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
My heart is an empty hole
Hands wanna wrap around your throat
Legs bruise everywhere you walk
Mouth spits all the shit you talk
Keep talking
Keep talking
Keep talking
Keep talking
In a world of lies, I find myself advised
To just pretend I'm nice
And not to say what's on my mind
But in a world of shit
I think you're just a bitch
Who couldn't fuck or suck my dick
Cause I'm a chick
Don't think I give a damn
I say these things because I can
Honesty is the holiest disease
Honesty is the holiest disease
Honesty is the holiest disease
Honestly is the holiest disease
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty
Honesty
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10. |
Let It Rain
03:29
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LET IT RAIN
I like the way you make me feel
Syrupy and clean
You have a strange effect on me
Loving every scream
Baptize this thing that burns
Everytime you bath me
If I confess too many sins
Will you still save me
Rain
Rain
Rain
Let it rain
As beautiful as a scar
There's nothing quite like you
I cut myself on your lips
Let you lick my wounds
So southern is my savior
So sick inside my head
But if I let you rescue me
Will I be left for dead
Rain
Rain
Rain
Let it rain
Let it rain
Down on me
Let it rain
Down on me
Let it rain
Down on me
Let rain, rain
The skies illumination
Comes from the city below
And I can taste every inch of your kiss
Every inch of your soul
From over here
Do you feel faith or do you feel fear
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11. |
Post Noise Revelation
03:46
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POST NOISE REVELATION
It seems you're always searching
For a new religion
Drown yourself in absolution
To excuse your sins
Nowadays it's easy to be swayed
By images portrayed
There is nothing you won't do
To get paid
So full of shit
You make me sick
Post noise revelation
Cult of my frustration
Post noise revolution
Is there no solution
It seems you're sucked into a scene
Of what the latest rage is
Force fed MTV
The new disease that is contagious
Videos that cost a million bucks
With fakes degrading ladies
Can I be a fan of you, baby
So full of shit
You make me sick
Post noise revelation
Cult of my frustration
Post noise revolution
Is there no solution
Post noise revelation
Cult of my frustration
Post noise revolution
Is there no solution
What seems to be the cancer
I don't know the answer
Someone needs to tell me
What they're trying to sell me
What's the fucking cancer
I don't know the answer
Someone needs to tell me now
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12. |
Do You Love Me
04:19
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DO YOU LOVE ME
Do you love me? Do you love me?
He found me on the night of fire and noise
Wild bells from rang the wild sky
I knew from that moment on
That i would love him till the day that I died
And he kissed away a thousand tears
His lady of her Various Sorrows
Some begged, some borrowed, some stolen
Some kept safe for tomorrow
On an endless night, the silver star spangled
And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Like I love you?
He was given to me to put things right
And I stacked all my accomplishments beside him
In a city so obsolete and small
I found God and all His devils inside him
In my bed he cast the blizzard out
A mock sun blazed upon his head
So completely filled with light he was
His shadow fanged and hairy and mad
Our love-lines grew hopelessly tangled
And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Like I love you?
All things move toward their end
I knew before I met him that I would lose him
I swear I made every effort to be good to him
I made every effort not to abuse him
Tattoos from his wrists to his ankles
And the bells from the chapel go jingle-jangle
jingle-jangle jingle-jangle
jingle-jangle
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
Do you love me? Do you love me?
DO YOU LOVE ME? Like I love you?
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13. |
Evening Prayer
04:01
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EVENING PRAYER
The wages of sin
Hold my heart hostage
My mouth is still cruel
My skin is in bondage
My body is scarred
From lyrics I've carved
Bruises I've healed
Lips that I've starved
Wounds I've replaced
With love and with hate
The truth set me free
But my faith was raped
I've broken my silence
Lied to myself
Spoken in violence
Been someone else
Screamed at my demons
Prayed to my God
Begged for forgiveness
My hands are still hot
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14. |
My War (Hidden Track)
02:00
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MY WAR
My war
You're one of them
You said, you're my friend
But you're one of them
You don't want to see me live
You don't want me to give
You're one of them
My war
You're one of them
You said, you're my friend
But you're one of them, them, them, yeah
War
You're one of them
You said, you're my friend
But you're one of them
Well I might not know what a friend is
All I know is what you're not
You're one of them
My war
You're one of them
You said, you're my friend
But you're one of them
Yeah
Yeah
You call yourself a friend
Fuck you
I've got better enemies than you
And this is my war baby
Go home
Get the fuck outta here
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15. |
Masochrist (Bonus Track)
03:07
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MASOCHRIST
Come to me
As Christ redeemed
Your make up hides identity
But I can see
You're still diseased
Get off your cross
Get off your knees
Dare I see the same in me
Never thought that I could be
So you just lick your wounds
But it's too late
Trust will lead you
To your own fate
Masochrist
What you sew
Is what you reap
You're only sick as
Secrets that you keep
And what you use
Is what you'll need
But I can't stand to
Watch you bleed for me
Forgive me father
For I'm not clean
I'd rather be Miss Magdalene
Your Vaseline won't heal my demons
Cause I don't talk to God
I'm screaming
Dare I see the same in me
You never thought
That I would be
So let me bruise my knees
Rape my faith
Scar myself with love and with hate
Masochrist
What you sew
Is what you'll reap
You're only sick as
Secrets that you keep
And what you use
Is what you need
But I can't stand to
Watch you bleed for me
For me
For me
For me
Oh lord hear my prayer
You look like you are scared
I do what you taught me
It's your turn to watch me
Oh lord hear my prayer
Pull me by my black hair
And stab me with your greed
It's my turn to bleed
What I sew
Is what I reap
I'm only sick as
Secrets that I keep
And what I use
Is what I need
Can you stand to
Watch me as I bleed
I bleed
I bleed
I'm bleeding for you
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