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To Britain With Love and Bruises

by MY RUIN

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1.
TO BRITAIN WITH LOVE Where do I begin I remember the first night we met It was 1996 At the Splash Club in London And I had a huge crush on you Over the years I've grown to love you For so many reasons Manchester Bristol Exeter And Nottingham To name a few You've watched me bleed Bruise Sweat And scream And you've never been afraid of me I don't blame you For what they've written about us Or our relationship No one really understands it Not even me I love it when that happens
2.
Beauty Fiend 03:48
BEAUTY FIEND It’s true, I’ve got demons inside me And sometimes they need to speak My dark places make me feel ugly My lips are glossed but my heart is weak I'm diseased, as seen on TV Please forgive me, for not being pretty Or sexy but god never blessed me Here's what you'll find next time you undress me Scars Wounds I'm bruised Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed Beauty fiend Once again, without perfect teeth I begin The dream as I sleep soon I've sinned My skin is still thick My mouth as always is brutally honest At my calmest, I'm tired of explaining How it feels…to be exploited and rated Number one, two or seventeen Fuck what they print in those damn magazines Scars Wounds I'm used Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed Beauty fiend Stuck inside this mask of mine There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me, don't fucking touch me Don't touch me... why? Can't you see beyond my skin Size, my shape, my ass, my tits I am not your pretty face I'm just a girl, the girl you love to hate Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed Beauty fiend Why can't you see beyond my skin Size, my shape, my ass, my tits I am not your pretty face I'm just a girl The girl you love to hate Stuck inside this mask of mine There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't, don't you fucking touch me… pig
3.
STICK IT TO ME It doesn't matter what I say Doesn't matter what I do I don't really give a fuck about you Nowadays it's all fake Put some make up on your face Lookin’ like a fuckin' chick in lipstick There is nothing here for me Dressed up in your new disease Hollywood is full of shit Don't ask me to sell my soul I would rather be myself You...do what you're told Stick it to me I know you want to Stick it in me You know you're going to Stick it to me I know you want to Stick it in me You know you're going to Take a picture if you need While I bleed What makes you think That you know me Dinner and an interview But I'm not a fan you At least I tell the truth Damned if I do Damned if I don't Damned if I will If I won't Stab me in the back And buy me one more drink Suck my trust until I'm fucked Then you can say You fucked me Stick it to me I know you want to Stick it in me You know you're going to Stick it to me I know you want to Stick it in me You know you're going to You're so sneaky With your surprises You're so sweet Underneath disguises I can't wait For you to criticize this Don't think I don't know How big your knife is Stick it in me I know you want to Stick it to me You know you’re going to Stick it in me I know you want to Stick it to me You know you’re going to You don't know me Like I know myself And I will never tell You don't know me Like I know myself You can go straight to hell
4.
Heartsick 02:57
HEARTSICK Late night catechism Speaks me to sleep A lethal dose of narcissism Conquers the beast I can't remember How I got my last scar The bible tells us Jesus was a Rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms Keep me awake Seven stars surround me As I burn like a saint I can't remember Why my knees are so sore The bible tells us Mary was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish There once was a girl And she suffered from sickness Mouth was distorted From razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend It was all in her mind But I know her voice When I hear mine God are you listening I hear you in my room As hot as the moon On the tenth day of June There's no sleeping for me I'm losing my faith Love is not safe In a world filled with hate Heart sick I'm sick Still sick My heart is sick
5.
Sick With It 03:07
SICK WITH IT Sick.... Sick with disease Deny addiction Down on my knees Feed my affliction Scared to believe My own decisions Eager to please Distorted visions Breathe life Need life Breath life Keep life Lie and deceive With no emotion False promises Loss of devotion Scarred by deceit My self destruction Love obsolete Live in dysfunction Breathe life Need life Breathe life Heal life Bleed life Feel life Keep life the sweet life Is all I want Yeah...c'mon, c'mon Can I bleed for the ritual Got a need for the ritual Can I breathe for the ritual Got a need for the ritual Can I breathe for the ritual Got a need for the ritual Can I bleed for the ritual Got a need for the ritual Sick with it Sick with it Sick with it Sick with it Sick with it I'm sick with it I'm sick with It It's inside me I feel it growing Nowhere to hide My anger's showing Breathe life Need life Breathe life Heal life Bleed life Feel life Keep life the sweet life And on this dark night of my soul I will continue to pray for us And try to remember the good things The sweet life The sweet life
6.
BLASPHEMOUS GIRL God Drunk with sin She sits in her skin Filled with anger Fueled by liqueur Drowns in dreams With no savior From the truth None can save her He is her own Personal Jesus And he will not be her last God wants a piece of her ass God wants a piece of my ass I am A blasphemous girl I am A blasphemous girl I am A blasphemous girl I am A blasphemous girl Magnum mouthed I shoot to kill You murder me With lies and guilt Strangle me With tragic hands God wants a piece of her ass God wants a piece of my ass I am A blasphemous girl I am A blasphemous girl I am Stab me Like a stalker Rape me Like a hero Stab me Like a stalker Rape me And be a hero Bless me enemy But don't forgive me I speak in tongues Behind your back A raw throat vocal martyr I will suffer For my lover I will suffer For his sins I have suffered... Torture me With timelessness Worship my fist With every kiss Resurrection Of my pain Drag me down Our memory lane Introduce me To devotion Leave me numb With no emotion Stars surround you When I feel you You look better When I cannot see You Honesty Is the holiest disease But truth Will set me free
7.
MY BEAUTIFUL FLOWER Ring around my lover I'm a motherfucker Gashes, gashes.... Your mouth blooms like a cut Sweet and full of sin I prick myself on your thorns And I bleed within Your petals start to fall And the weeds attack In my torture garden The blue sky is black My beautiful flower He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me My beautiful flower He loves me not he loves me He loves me not He loves me Our love starts to spoil My lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where the evil grows My petals fade to brown And you watch me die In my torture garden Under black sunshine Your beautiful flower You love me not You love me You love me not You love me You love me not Your beautiful flower You love me not You love me You love me not You loves me You love me not Your mouth Blooms like a cut Sweet and full of sin I prick myself On your thorns And I bleed within Our love starts to spoil Your lips Bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where my evil grows I am earth You can feel me touch you Hear me breath Cause it's my air That loves you And I am fire You will feel me burn you Come inside And I'll be water with you He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me Not
8.
Masochrist 03:01
MASOCHRIST Come to me As Christ redeemed Your make up hides Misanthropy But I can see You're still diseased Get off your cross Get off your knees Dare I see The same in me Never thought That I could be So you just Lick your wounds But it's too late Trust will lead you To your own fate Masochrist What you sew Is what you reap You're only sick as Secrets that you keep And what you use Is what you'll need But I can't stand to Watch you bleed...for me Forgive me father For I'm not clean I'd rather be Miss Magdalene Your vaseline Won't heal my demons Cause I don't talk to God I'm screaming Dare I see The same in me You never thought That I would be But I just Bruise my knees Rape my faith Scar myself With love and with hate Masochrist What you sew Is what you'll reap You're only sick as Secrets that you keep And what you use Is what you need But I can't stand to Watch you bleed For me For me For me For me Oh lord, hear my prayer You look like you are scared I do what you taught me It's your turn to watch me Oh lord, hear my prayer Pull me by my black hair And stab me With your greed It's my turn to bleed What I sew Is what I reap I'm only sick as Secrets that I keep And what I use Is what I need So tell me can you Stand to watch me Bleed I bleed I bleed I'm bleeding For you
9.
Sycophant 03:22
SYCOPHANT Something wicked This way comes Premeditated evil numbs Cartoon kids Crayola smiles Children of the Korn fed styles But I don't buy your lies I see through your disguise Don't feel your screams or cries Why... I'm sick of looking So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of looking So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm.... I see you breathless And deranged A little girl Who's acting strange Tryna scare us With your scream But it's all routine And all you've done is take Steal and imitate You are what you create You're fake... I'm sick of looking So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of looking So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm.... I barely recognize You in your new disguise Cosmetic covered eyes You leave me dry Why...why...why You put the make-up on Take the make-up off Searching to be found But they are so damn lost Now the road to hell Is paved with stones And some of those are Fakes and clones Counterfeits Which suck and bleed us Still rockin' Adidas But something still ain't right No substance only hype With "Faith" you got the life That made you rich And you're a punk ass bitch I'm sick of looking, So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of looking So sick I can't I'm sick Of the sycophant Sick of listening So sick I can't I'm sick to death of you And every band like you Sometimes I think I've lost my mind Or else this whole world's blind
10.
Hemorrhage 04:19
HEMORRHAGE I stick my finger down your throat Explore my thoughts of murder A journey through the human heart Dark places filled with terror Obsession lets you have your way Devotion makes me stay This mercy seat I imitate Won't let you get away In praise of him I pray In praise of him I save In praise of him I give myself away Come kiss away my honesty Exploit me with your pain Learn to love this monster You created in your name Redemption lets you face your fear Salvation leaves a stain The thought of me makes you so sick There's nothing left to hate In praise of him I pray In praise of him I save In praise of him I give myself away again In praise of him I've prayed In praise of him I'm saved In praise of him I gave myself away A different sort of suffering I practice what I preach Aroma therapeutic death Can you smell me speak If violence is religion Then everyone's a star It doesn't matter what you've done Only who you are Who you are Who you are Underneath the Hollywood cross Underneath this holy wood cross My lover let me tie you down Hold your heart my hostage I promise after I am through Your skin will still taste salted My mouth is not your enemy My lips are not your friend If we were still together I would torture you again In praise of him I pray In praise of him I save In praise of him I give myself away In praise of him I've prayed In praise of him I'm saved In praise of him I hate myself again You never know what you will find Until you look inside I never knew what I would find Then I looked inside Let me torture you again Torture you my friend Let me torture you again Like you tortured me, my friend Let me torture you again Like you tortured me, my friend Let me torture you again Like you tortured me, my friend It never ends....
11.
Rockstar 03:20
ROCKSTAR I feel the skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide You're by my side It's hard to lie Sometimes I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you in the sunshine I feel you where I stand I can see you in the bright lights I feel you hold my hand Let your light surround me In loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something so deep inside me Binds me with you Told me a secret Swore that I'd keep it Someday my friend We'll meet again So until then... I'll keep your secret safe I can see you in the moonlight I feel you where I stand I can see you on those dark nights I feel you hold my hand Let your light surround me In loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me......Lynn Rockstar We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be bound We will always be down I feel you when I scream these words I am just a girl that hurts Feel me when I scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I feel you when I scream these words I am just a girl that hurts Feel me when I scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just your girl.....that hurts

about

This album is a FREE DOWNLOAD and our gift to friends & fans. Please SHARE the ROCK LOVE! If you care to make a DONATION in the name of ART with your DOWNLOAD, we thank you and appreciate the support in continuing to keep our DIY spirit of independence alive in our music past to present day! Please check out our NEW rock project SWTEVL @ swtevl.bandcamp.com ♥ Enjoy and KEEP IT SACRED!❤️‍🔥

We recorded this live session album on the eve of our 'Prayer Under Pressure' U.K. Tour in 2000. The music was recorded the night before & the vocals were recorded early the next morning in one take before our first show later that evening. A limited edition of 10,000 numbered CD copies were printed when this was released the following year in 2001 as our gift to our British fans. Track #1 is a spoken word love letter to the U.K.

◄| To Britain With Love and Bruises / Press Quotes |►

"Undisputed Gratitude; My Ruin with a special thank you from Tairrie & co. 'You were so beautiful and I had such a huge crush on you. Over the years, I've grown to love you for so many reasons.' No, it's not the tear-jerking denouement of a trashy Mills and Boon novel but Tairrie's spoken-word intro into this unique and affecting thank you to places like Manchester, Bristol and Exeter that have played host to her particular brand of muse-sick over the years. 'You've watched bleed, bruise, sweat and scream and you've never been afraid of me' she continues. Well, we might occasionally argue the last bit but you get the general gist. British audiences have always received My Ruin (and indeed Tura Satana and Manhole) with open arms and now Tairrie
wants to give a little back. In her words 'This is our gift to someone, somewhere, far from home which has made us feel loved and welcome. A friend, fan or maybe both.' Recorded last November on the eve/morning of their 'Prayer Under Pressure' UK tour 'to Britain....' is made up of 10 songs
taken from My Ruin's 'A Prayer Under Of Pressure' and 'Speak & Destroy' albums played live in the studio without any production whatsoever. The songs you'll know ( Beauty Fiend, Blasphemous Girl, Sycophant etc) but this is an intense and visceral experience. The Tairrie roar is in fine fettle throughout (particularly on the tribute to late Snot frontman Lynn Strait - 'Rockstar') and now the stable permanent line up of Mick Murphy (guitar), Meghan Mattox (bass) & Yael (drums) are an incredible tight and focused unit with nary a duff note in sight and more punch than a seaside attractions supply depot. It would be all to easy to dismiss 'To Britain With Love...' as a
tawdry gimmick to fleece a little more money out of My Ruin's British fans
but that would be to totally miss the point. Something like this is only ever going to be bought by fans who really want it and those people will absolutely adore this album. To Britain with love? Awww! Right back at ya, lady!"

- Mark Griffiths | Kerrang!
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"When My Ruin surfaced way back in 99' with their debut 'Speak & Destroy' album, it went straight over my head. However, when the band returned the the fray with last years 'A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish' LP and a brand new line-up, the underlining sense of brutality really struck a chord with me. Finally Miss B had found a vehicle capable of conveying her anthems of love, loss and self-loathing.Or perhaps what is closer to the truth is that finally guitarist / songwriter Mick Murphy had found a muse for his dark brooding soundscapes. Recorded prior to the band's sell-out winter tour of the U.K. 'To Britain With Love.....' is a continuation on the My Ruin voyage of self-discovery , stripped away to it's most basic level. Featuring choice cuts from My Ruin's first two studio outings, re-recorded in a single take live session and packaged up as a Valentine's Day gift to My Ruin's U.K. fans.
No gimmicks. No big name producer - just primal slabs of pure anger! Stripped down and raw, songs that sit uncomfortable on the aforementioned studio albums - namely the Sabbath inspired riffage of 'Heartsick' & 'Sycophant', with its pang to rap metal - really start to come into their own, whilst more self-assured tracks like 'Beauty Fiend' and the Nick Cave-esque 'My Beautiful Flower' are given a whole new dimension. Putting her larger than life personality to one side, love or hate Tairrie, there's no denying that My Ruin have the makings of a great band."

- Daniel Lane | Metal Hammer U.K.
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"Always special about getting a numbered CD, not sure what it is but it seems special... no. 03764 is what I hold in my hands right now, nobody else has my number, why? Because I'm special, and from the number to the warm intro spoken in Miss B's trademark voice for such things, everything stays on a heart warming "thanks to the fans" attitude. Before I even got to the music though the inlay booklet got my attention, not the usual lyrics and pictures of the band in some photo studio. This inlay is just picture after picture of My Ruin fans. From what I've read on internet message boards this personal touch has gone down really well and only helps to bring My Ruin's fans even closer to the band they love. Now this album was recorded live in a studio during November of last year. I can't help but feel if they wanted to do a live album they should of recorded at a show from their tour. My thought is soon put to rest as this CD is about as raw as you can get without sliding down a cheese grater. Put simply My Ruin at their very best. Songs from their first album 'Speak and Destroy' and the newer 'A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish' make it onto this disc, and I have to say the live edge to these songs will make you see them in a different light. If you are a fan of My Ruin buy this, if you love metal buy this, or if you simply want to experiment and are looking for a good CD to add to your collection buy this."

- Drowned In Sound
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"A collection of songs from two previous albums that was recorded live in the studio and released on Valentine's Day in the U.K. to say thanks to their fans.
The music is definitely heavy with the most aggressive, raw female vocals you are ever likely to hear. The songs swing between loud and aggressive to dark and dramatic and this would really appeal to a lot of different people from either the metal side to the alternative heavy crowd. One thing is for sure if you want to hear a female vocalist that would give Phil Anselmo a run for his money, you should definitely listen to this."

- Ian Busch | Primal Agony Webzine
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"To the best of my knowledge Tairrie B went in an laid down the vocal tracks around 3am after appearing for an interview on Radio 1. That fact alone I feel, proves that this IS a genuine offering of thanks to the U.K. fans who have supported the band. The bare, stripped down feel and sound of this album suits My Ruin perfectly, and throughout the 11 tracks on here, they never let up. It's just VICIOUS. Totally raw and brutal. Tracks like 'Stick It To Me' and 'Heartsick' are even more vicious than their studio versions and sound as corrosive as ever. Slightly older tracks like 'Sycophant' sound fresh and 'Sick With It' is absolutely scorching. The whole thing is topped off with an unbelievable intense version of 'Rockstar' which alone makes this CD worth owning. Apparently when the band's last studio effort 'APUPOVA' came out, one journalist thought that the vocals were all Mick Murphy and was like 'where's Tairrie?' - somewhat unwilling to believe the raw throat attack on that record was hers, and, no offense to Tairrie and/or her femininity, but listening to this record, you gotta empathize with the guy! Raw and un-produced, pure and intense.This is My Ruin....throat, guitar, ass and drums. That's it. Go buy!"

- Skratch The Surface

credits

released February 26, 2001

Lyrics & Vocals - Tairrie B
Guitar - Mick Murphy
Bass - Meghan Mattox
Drums - Yael

Engineered & Mixed by Bob Birthwright
Recorded Live @ Stanbridge Farm Studios, Sussex, England
Sacred Heart Cover by Alex "Axis" Ventura

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